I was reading other blog… Don’t remember the url… BUT I think it won the-best-kept-secret 2003 Weblog Award; the writer is kind of addicted to writing lists I liked her writing very much I say liked because just found her Blog is down! Any way, after reading it I discovered I like making lists. It is real. SO, I decided I’m going to use that style also? Think it makes much easier to keep up with a theme.

Since I love to talk about myself… Let me tell you 100 things about ME…

My NS food arrived today!!!

It arrived at 4:00 PM… My postmaster called my cell and I just went right up to Post Net to pickup my order. It felt like it was Chrismas. I couldn’t wait to get home so I opened it right in the parking… When I saw all those boxes I felt kind of overwelmed but happy at the same time.

As you know February 14 is Saint Valentine’s Day… SO, I went out with my DH… of course we eat… A LOT.

When we finally got home, I went over my Nutri-order to see if there was some item missing. Indeed, there was a few things missing. So, I e-mailed my counselor inmediatelly to let her know.

I’M STARTING TOMORROW… WoooHooo!!!! I’m soooooexcited!

YESTERDAY I RESOLVED I NEEDED TO DO SOMETHING GOOD FOR MYSELF.
I only have one problem in my life… But it’s a really BIG problem. That’s my weight gain. Some time ago I used to weight 145 pounds. But, after getting married, taking the pill and being depressed over some changes in life; I managed to gain 100 pounds in the past seven years. TODAY IS THE DAY TO START WALKING TOWARDS A MORE BRIGHT FUTURE… IT’S TIME TO BE HEALTHY, LEAN AND BEAUTIFUL… IT’S TIME TO LOOSE THAT WEIGHT I’VE ACCUMULATED.

In January I decided I wouldn’t WORK any more because IT was taking a TOLL in my mariage, my emotional stability, my spiritual life, and my weight.

I had NO TIME to be with Mike (My Lovely Husband) I would wake up really early; By 6:30 AM I was already at work (One hour drive away from home) So, I would leave home at 5:30 while Mike was still sleeping. He would wake up at 8:30 AM all alone with no one to make him a good breakfast, nor talk to him or cheer him up. In the afternoon I had a two hour drive instead of one hour because of trafic… That would put me in a REALLY BAD MOOD. Why would a proffesional with a Master Degree on Linguistics take such a bad teaching job SO far away from home with such a BAD pay? At night, when Mike arived home, I was SO stressed, sleepy, tired, angry, and frustrated I wouldn’t dedicate any time to him AT ALL. I won’t even prepare dinner for him… nor for myself. We lived on JUNK FOOD. So we both GAINED WEIGHT. That got me more depressed, angry, and discouraged!!! Our house was DESSASTER ZONE. I was SO TIRE, from traveling every day and being out up twelve hours daily, that I would NOT CLEAN OUR HOUSE at all.

During weekend I concentrated on resting and recuperating energy. Mike and I wouldn’t go out at all (Not even church) I HAD TO PREPARE PLANS FOR THE NEXT WEEK. Just HATED to have a teaching job where I needed to take time at home to prepare plans because I didn’t had a proffesional hour! What kind of job is it? I was teaching Spanish to seven different groups. I was giving seven diferent lessons daily. That is 42 lesson plans I preppared weekly! Not to mention that almost 50% of my students had special needs or where from the “Special Ed Program” The only thing I liked about it was that I was teaching to such wonderfull kids. I would be sad to leave VCSchool.

In December MY CAR BROKE several times because of the long distance I was traveling everyday. But I still managed to go to work borowing my DH’s car. After the third time it happened I didn’t had money left to fix it, nor had the money to buy one. And my DHusband didn’t wanted to borow me his car any more. After all he needed it to work. The school director asked all the time what I was going to do about it, and the only answer I had was I didn’t had any money. I manage to finish the first semester without any absent at all. Eventhough I couldn’t go to the School’s Chrismas party because my car was broke and Mike was away working in a project (He is an Electrical Engineer)

First week of January I was sick… Really sick to my stomach… SO SICK I would regurgitate everything I eat. My stomach hurted badly and I had nausea all the time. SO, I didn’t showed up for the first day of class. The school director called several times. But I wouldn’t go to the phone because I was sick. She spoke with Mike instead… I think she didn’t believed I was sick!

After two weeks feeling these bad, not going to work, and not going out what so ever. I recovered BUT I didn’t had a car… Remember? It broke last week of December. So I didn’t returned to VCS, nor called. I think I feared I was going to be pushed to do something I would regret later. Like being pushed to buy a new car or rent one. I couldn’t afford a new car with a $965.00 salary. Take out state taxes and social security… and I’m left close to nothing. I WALKED AWAY FROM MY JOB WITHOUT TELLING OR TALKING TO ANYONE. I JUST DIDN’T WEN’T BACK. After all, it was only giving me problems, pain, sickness… and I was loosing Mike. I know what I did was wrong but, after all, I don’t like people to dictate what should I do… I don’t want people to try to dictate my future… AFTER ALL IS MY LIFE… Don’t let people dictate your future… And if you mess up, gather all the pieces and start again. Forget and Forgive. Put yourself together, and START AGAIN. Everyday is a good day to start again, acomplish new goals, and walk toward new dreams.